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[Apr. 28th, 2005|11:51 pm] |
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i finally found my answer to all you "WHAT YOU'RE NOT GOING TO YOUR SENIOR PROM" people.....what am i going to do? sit in the corner and shuffle my feet all night... because it would be forced fun and why would i want that when i could have real fun with a few friends and save me the cash for something else thats real fun. |
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| ah crap |
[Apr. 28th, 2005|10:43 pm] |
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ok so i am incredibly stressed and what do i do.....i write a post!
i am so sick of death. I know it is a part of life and the people i am missing right now had been suffering a lot of pain, but it still just doesnt seam fair. the most optimistic person i know who lived 19 incredible years to the absolute fullest, compared to so many who live well into their 90s just passing time. Reid actually IMPROVED the life of everyone around him. god i feel like i didnt even hang out with him much, but still looked up to him.
And then theres my yaya...yeah she smoked too much, yeah she was overweight, and yeah she ate ridiculously unhealthy Greak food all the time...but she was one of the happiest people you could imagine. After 3 and a half years of cancer and loosing more than half her body weight...she still could down a cheeseburger with all the fixings and some fries, as well as give me strict instructions to take care of my mother.
Then in the midst of not being able to think clearly, add on another fund raiser, graduation to plan, tennis matches and rescheduling, this peer helper wellness day thing ALL day saturday, this interview for the big paper, 32 scholarship applications, and then tests and essays for school...and the most ridiculous system of "rewarding" or "honoring" people.
so...to all of you underclassmen...dont bother taking ap classes, or even honors for that matter. i know i may not have tried hard in my one ap but honors in 99% of everything else isnt even good enough anymore.
I AM SO READY TO BE DONE AND GET TO DELAWARE ASAP!!!
(this is officially the first time i am not looking forward to summer..from realizing that the 55hr. work weeks last summer isnt going to be enough this time) |
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[Apr. 11th, 2005|11:43 pm] |
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"United We Stand,
Divided We Fall."
~T.K
5:30am - Wake up to attempt to start my homework
6:35am - Start the English essay
7:00am - grab food and leave for school
1st block - Mr. KHS stuff
Advisory - survey and decide to not finish essay then
2nd block - freak about how far behind I am in physics and soon to be in English
Lunch - total freak out about in class essay with sub for English next block
3rd block - write essay and totally forget about essay due then
4th block - MSK to tutor
Advisory again – get report card…it was the worst I’ve ever had but I was expecting it.
After school - learn some physics for the last test
- Drive home to get tennis clothes and savannah
- Practice...meh ok but a bit cold
- Grab dinner and eat at YM a half hour early, I messed up the times
8pm to 10pm - Summerland at O’Brien’s w/ Victoria...days improving
10pm - arrive back home to sit and cry with my mom for a few hours
I'm just so amazed at how life can really take such sudden changes. Today was the epitome of a roller coaster with mostly the falling down points. I finally am home to start some of this homework and there is absolutely no way I am going to be able to focus tonight...maybe tomorrows classes can wait too? |
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[Apr. 4th, 2005|02:59 pm] |
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| | "There you are" Martina McBride | ] |
So I think maybe I just needed to get a good nights sleep and start fresh with a new day...and new quarter for that matter. It's nice to finally be rid of those late assignments from my laziness. I've finally decided that today’s classes are my favorite. I have late arrival, and then in Latin I become a ninja? and we all get along pretty well and just talk about current events in the world and our school. Then in government we have some sort of snack and just talk about more current events or have discussions on court cases. Then in math...well I just like math. Even when I’m lost and totally confused I know I’ll figure it out eventually.
More exciting news.... Mr. Simpson and the maintenance guys cleaned off the tennis courts!!! I think I might also be in a better mood because we can finally have somewhat of a real practice and actually hit!
Okay so I’m off to take a nap before practice.... |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2005|08:04 pm] |
what the heck.
i am fed up with so many parts of life and just cant wait to get away from this teeny tiny exclusive town. My friends have always been the stable part of my life while my families the disaster.....its so strange for it to be the opposite. I'm finally comfortable with my family the way it is but i feel so strange around most "friends." For some reason i feel like im seeing more and more fake smiles.
i guess i cant expect EVERYTHING to be perfect! |
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| i think today was the official first day of spring! |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|04:48 pm] |
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| | stop me running from the things that can save my life | ] |
wow its been a while but things have been sooo crazy around here. between spirit week, mr. khs, tests, papers and family/church things its been exhausting! it was so nice to sleep ALL day saturday! and then to just hang out and not really do anything...except watch an eh movie! haha (i don't recommend Eternal Sunshine of a spotless mind) I just can't wait for tennis to start! once it gets going and we start playing outside it really is SPRING! and the END of SCHOOL and GRADUATION! im going to miss it overall but im ready to move on from this point in my life! i've decided this summer isnt going to be as crazy as the last one because i just cant let it. im going to end up working just as much because i need the money but its gotta be a better job. If anyone has any suggestions for like a night/evening job i need help! |
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[Mar. 4th, 2005|02:45 pm] |
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| | I see love....i know how to sign language the chorus! | ] |
sooo today has been by far the BEST day ever! i woke up this morning at like 6 to say goodbye to my mom....basically i stayed in bed and mumbled a bit. then i went back to sleep a lil but woke up just before my alarm at 7:30. i got up and took my time getting up and working on my Latin note card. i had a guidance appointment at 8:30 but i got there like 15 minutes late and they didn’t care and i wasn’t even worried about it cuz they're always late anyways. so i talked a bit about scholarship stuff then went to Latin. the test was just horrible, i most definitely failed! but then...i stopped in ms rollersons room to say hi and get a pass cuz i was going to be late to government because i wanted to stop at the vending machine and get a snack. so i got a pass and my snack and when i walked in, i saw a table of food and remembered we were having a bday party for Laura M. and so we got to eat good brownies and cookies and munchies while we just listened to presentations. its such a great relaxed class!
So then at lunch i go to find Victoria to get help with math so i don’t fail the next test...THIS IS WHEN IT REALLY PICKS UP she and Elise are in there and tell me he canceled the test!!! that’s PERFECT i didn’t understand like any of it. so that’s great, cuz now i can go back to lunch where i talk to ms rollerson some more about graduation stuff and mr KHS and basically get more excited to do all this senior stuff. In math class we just worked on the pretest but when the juniors left we realized there were four senior girls in a corner, then 7 sophomore boys in the opposite corner! sooo we talk about how weird that was. once we finished going over the pretest we told stories and jokes. i was just so much fun! thennnn i go to advisory and go home, but i stopped at the bank and saw matt where i asked him to help with my break light which has been out since October. its totally my fault i just keep forgetting about it and calling him. ive had the light we just gotta meet sometime to get it fixed. I've only been pulled over for it once, and that was already like 2 months ago so im not too concerned. so then i see Justin parent in the bank too. it makes me so happy when you see people form school who you know, you’ve talked to before in a class or something but then they say hi outside of school too. that was just nice.
THEN i check my voice messages and realize there’s two but i don’t remember missed calls. of course the first is my mom, but then! its this guy David from NYC who did that exchange thing and then came up with a few others in the summer and stayed with Tina....we've been emailing and talking on im and stuff because he is in the Navy now and is away a lot. SO he now has a phone and i had given him my cell in an email and he called and just left one of those, just saying hi messages. it was so great. that was just the cherry topping :)
that was so great! im off to watch the notebook, its been almost a whole week!!! then shower, pack and go to this retreat thing. hopefully its great...o and i know today’s only going to be better because im going to get to see someone amazing there too!!! ok i must be off....this was long so now my fingers hurt! haha have a great weekend everyone! |
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| ahhh vacations almost over! |
[Feb. 25th, 2005|01:34 pm] |
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| | "This is not my life" by fastball-crazybeautiful soundtrack | ] |
I have decided that my mother is impossible to read! she wouldn't let me drive down to babson to visit with rebecca, because i don't"know the area" and she has zero faith in my car. Instead I'm going down with jackie because shes got a ton of family down there, but still doesn't really know like the babson college area. AND her car and mine are practically siblings as far as reliability. So today my mom decides to work from home in the morning while I pack and make cookies and clean up a bit. then, this is the best part, at about noon time she goes, "so emily at 2:00 im meeting a friend for coffee, so don't go too crazy this weekend and be responsible." I'm leaving at 3:00 and i was waiting for the whole talk to start but that was it!! I'm going for two nights in a college dorm and thats it! she didn't even stay around here to talk to jackie or anything about driving! I mean jackie and I are going to have fun driving down with music and everything but my mom is just so confusing sometimes!
SOOOO excited to see rebecca! i honestly think she is going to be one of those friends you know and talk to for the rest of your life.
so that is my weekend, i haven't done anything as far as reading that book, my government project, re-writing my research paper, physics worksheet, or math! when i get home sunday afternoon thats what ill be doing :) |
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| cant wait! |
[Feb. 23rd, 2005|08:29 pm] |
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| |  O BOY O BOY O BOY | ] |
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| | Salt N' Pepper! | ] |
i never thought i would be excited about sinks, toilets or tubs. today my mom and i started looking through things to decide on all this for our new house. When we built a house 10 years ago my sister and i played in the parking lot every time we went to a carpet store or paint store. This time its actually interesting! im finally going to get a closet so big that i dont need a dresser and a smaller bed so i'll be able to use my room for other stuff! haha the only sad thing is ill only be there about 5 months a year for the next 4 years, and then prolly even less after that!
So classes end in the end of may, beginning of june i graduate, end of june we move to somewhere, beginning of july we settle in somewhere, end of july we move into the real house, beginning of august i get up my room and begin packing for college, end of august i go to college!
busy but exciting summer.....in only 3 months!!!! |
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[Feb. 17th, 2005|04:43 pm] |
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| | The Notebook Soundtrack | ] |
i think today was the first day all year where i was done by 2:30 and could just go home. Of course this would have been just crazy for me (i wouldnt know what to do!) so i went to the dollar store, then to mardens, then to wally world. This whole time the two things i had in mind to get was 1.) some sort of storage thing for cds/dvds or some way to organize all my scrapbooking stuff....right now its all thrown into a plastic bin thingy and 2.) the soundtrack to the notebook. At the dollar store i found a few glittery markers, stickers, and this like glow marker, all acid free for my scrapbook! i just opened the package for the glow marker and it doesnt even work! i guess i deserve that from trying to get it so cheap though! next at mardens....i found...ready.....brace yourselves! an arm rest made out of that mouse pad stuff for your wrists right in front of the keyboard. i must tell you, it feels AMAZING!!! that is pretty much the reason for my typing this and being so wordy...i just dont wanna stop! hehe i also found this neat journal thing because i have a TON of quotes saved in a word document but ive always wanted like a journal for it (yes, inspired by A Walk to Remember, written by my hero) after walking around a bit and getting really creeped out by one of the worker guys at mardens i left, still needing the notebook soundtrack and the storage container. I found so many neat things! sometimes i feel like such an old lady because i see those things and i just cant wait to have a house and get stuff for it. i found a big plastic thing for cds, and one for dvds, and then smaller ones for my scrapbooking stuff....of course all with lids and everything! i even found the soundtrack for wicked cheap! i thought it would be expensive because the movie is so incredible, but it was only $9. So, about two and a half hours later, and only about $30 dollars, i have a bunch of new toys to go play with! the best part is, its almost vacation, i have hardly any homework (as in im prolly not going to do it!) and my moms gonna be home late so i can be messy and not be told im a slacker so much :)
ok this got WICKED long but im still loving this rest thing! seriously its so simple but it feels amazing! ok now im off to get cramps writing quotes in my journal...o i forgot to tell you heres a thought to go with (its on the cover of the book...
The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple.
ok so if you have your favorite quote(s) you wanna share that would be great! |
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[Feb. 13th, 2005|06:55 pm] |
This horoscope is amazing!....
Your mind's quick as a fox, and the rest of you is pretty foxy, too. Apply your intellect to charming someone with your crazy ideas and stupendous plans. They'll want to be a part of it all....
i just like that is says foxy! |
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[Feb. 13th, 2005|11:53 am] |
sooo snowball was fun. there were some good things about it and some bad but overall it was pretty good. basically it just made me even more excited for college. even though there were very few people there who were either a.) sober b.) not sluts or c.) just there! it was nice to have friends to just go crazy and dance. its amazing how four years ago i would have never danced with like 6 other people just off to the side and had a lot of fun.
i cant wait for this week to be over! im not even sure what days im going to waterville vally to visit friends and ski, but i just cant wait to relax. annnnnd then....i get to visit rebeca at the end of the week! i love how i only really see her in the summer and then one week for christmas but she is still one of my best friends. ok enough of this procrastination, i gotta write a paper! |
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[Feb. 10th, 2005|07:26 pm] |
NO SCHOOL today! basically that means 5 more hours of sleep, a real breakfast, a few tv shows, and of course starting homework late at night! somehow i managed to not do my homework last night, and proved that Murphy's law wrong! I also learned how to mess with my computer some more and delete some of my favorite programs (the card game hearts!)
after a pretty bad few days it was nice to be able to do a lot of thinking today. ive decided i need to just enjoy my true friends more and not worry so much about the fake ones. |
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| what is going on? |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|02:06 pm] |
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for some reason it feels like this is not what senior year should be. Instead of going out on weeknights with friends to procrastinate homework, i watch the same movies again and again, waiting for the weekends. Then on the weekends, the fun starts, but isn't that just like every other year of high school? What ever happened to skiing at least a few times?.....so far the count is at 0! it seems like people are so wrapped up in themselves or their close friends that they forget about the big picture of life. we are basically never going to see each other every day with no REAL problems (bills, food, shelter....its all taken care of for the moment!) we should ALL be having fun and enjoying each others company...this is it! this is life....it doesn't get any better and we cant do it over again! |
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| I AM DONE |
[Jan. 31st, 2005|01:50 am] |
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I'm DONE!!! I'm DONE!!! I'm DONE!!!
2039words = 19hours = 2days = I'M DONE!!!!!!!! |
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| Ridiculousness |
[Jan. 30th, 2005|09:56 pm] |
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| | BLLLLAAAAAHHHHH | ] |
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| | The Eagles...get over it | ] |
what the heck is going on! i have been reading through incredible amounts of information on George Orwell, the book Animal Farm, Stalin and the Russian Revolutions and so far i got pretty much nothing. Yesterday i worked on this from 9am to 4pm with minimal breaks, but i just read forever. Today from 10am to 3pm with only on hour break i came up with about 800 words and now from 7om to 10pm ive come up with 400 more words and i still have 800 to go. This is getting to be insane. My moms encouragement is that if i write this REALLY well then i can use it again next year :) the only problem is i just can't stay motivated. I end up reading and reading and reading, and then i go to write and im like now what am i supposed to say!!! ok well this is the last thing i should be doing but im considering it a break. i wish i liked coffee because those chocolate popsicles and chocolate soy milk don't have enough caffeine! here i go again.....
o by the way....ive decided it would be really amazing to see the eagles in concert. i found one song i remembered i liked by them so of course i downloaded many more....they're really great! |
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[Jan. 27th, 2005|05:58 am] |
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| | Right on Track....from the Breakfast Club! | ] |
its thursday! that means its almost friday which means that i have one whole night for fun, and then a day to write a paper, a night for a swim meet, then a day to write the paper some more, then a night for a swim dinner....what a thrilling weekend ahead!!
ive decided the WB has the best tv shows. i hardly ever watch tv but today i saw an episode of Yes Dear that i had already seen! it was hilarious. That show and king of queens always make me laugh and then surprised that i actually just laughed at something so ridiculous.
sooo i need to go take a shower now...i cant stand the smell of chlorine!
Have A Wonderful Weekend! |
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| hmmmm yeah sooooo |
[Jan. 25th, 2005|07:40 pm] |
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| | the tv in the other room...i think its american idol | ] |
so here i go again...im at the obrien's right now and its been making me think a lot about family.....jsut from being around a REALLY close one. The past two nights ive come home to a house with lights on, people saying hi and an excellent hot meal on the table with milk poured and everything! its just been so nice to not have to think about what your going to throw together and have to do it yourself.....especially since i HATE cooking real food. No more cans of corn or eggs!
ok ive written like 4 other paragraphs to go after this and then erased them.....sooo somebody leave a comment just so i know if i should even write in here! |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2005|07:44 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | Shattered by Remy Zero (crazy/beautiful soundtrack) | ] |
soooo i finally broke down and decided i was bored enough to get one of these livejournal things. i dont have any idea if it will be interesting or not, or even if im going to write in it much. all i know is i am going to make a lot of typos....and spell a lot of things wrong so just get used to it.
right now im watching Crazy/Beautiful for the 2nd night in a row on tv. yes Rebecca...your favorite movie! "You stupid up an down bitch!" i still think the guy looks like my old neighbor.
sooo anyways tonights susposed to be snowball buuut since we live in new england... its snowing too much! yeah so being stuck in this one room house is fun....especially with a mother that thinks im as old as she is...appartenly shes too tired to let me go anywhere...yeah let me know when you figure that out too. ok im gonna go make this all pretty or something....bye! |
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